Doing much better

[junesleep]

As the Christmas season reaches its peak, I find myself being less stressed about everything. I have this ongoing mantra in my head of "Everything will work out" and really just accepting everything that happens during my day. Not spending too much mental energy on worries and anxieties. My paranoia has gotten a lot better. I am simply enjoying myself, not putting too much pressure on myself at all. There's simply no reason to. It is the start of winter, I have close to zero true responsibilities, and I'm just existing.

One of my most frustrating habits is that I always feel like I need guidance on being a person, on being an adult, on just existing. I am always looking for a new book that promises it will teach me how to be myself or be happier or be happy with being minimalist or whatever. Or I find a string of YouTube videos about what aesthetics I should have or how I should behave or what is trendy with the world. And I always feel stretched in a million directions because I'm following all of these self-help guides at the same time. I've spent so much time doing this that I sometimes worry that I don't know myself. It can be scary.

But in 2026 I am saying "no" to self-help guides. I am not going to let self-improvement books or videos or social media dictate what I like to do or who I am.

I wish I had more drawings to share, but the new sketchbook I am using is different from my old one and I am getting used to it.